Sometimes

I think violence is the answer. Let me step back about 18 to 20 hours. I get a call before dinner at Mom's place. As I see the caller ID says "Cleveland Clinic", I excitedly pick up the phone. Surly, they're about to tell me that everything is set to go. Insurance has cleared everything. Here is you're last bit of instructions before you arrive. something like that, right. ABSOLUTELY NOT! Apparently, some drug that they need to inject during the Ictal SPECT observation phase in "unavailable".

What is that suppose to mean!!? Are you telling me that if I were in congress, or Hollywood for crying out loud, I couldn't get my hands on some Ictal sauce? I think not. I can't stand the fact that we have been trying for 6+ months to get in to this place, and less than a week before go time, the retard behind the counter goes "sorry dude, we're outta fries."

I and my family, not just immediate, I mean FAMILY, scheduled and planned for this for who knows how long. Rage. Just rage. Now, I'm looking at a lot of the family that I had lined up to take care of Ella, back in school! "Cause guess what. School starts in mid August. How bout Ella, we don't want to pull her out of her school year. AAaaahhhhhhh! rage. Even looking for work. I'm in a the next pool to be hired and could really use a job. But guess what, they, like most employers, really value reliability. If I get hired soon, I could be twitchy. If the call in about a month, I have to sing and dance. "No, it's cool. I'll be back in a few weeks after I'm done getting my head checked out." What, what... rage.

Whew......

So, a shattered phone, busted lamp, a table and chair tossed here and there. I'm starting to calm down. Actually, typing this out helps a bit. I managed to stay calm while explaining the ridiculousness of all this to a "scheduler" this morning, so I get the opportunity to "speak" with a Dr. Probably 'cause they're not doing anything else. They're not admitting patients!

We're still trying to get some other arrangement worked out between Cleveland, my local neuro, and anyone else who I can get involved. Obviously, this is a venting post. Depending on what happens, you may get another.

T